Marianne changed her Profile

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Just thought I’d have a Facebook moment and let followers know that I’ve changed my profile script.

Since WordPress doesn’t make the announcement, it seemed like a good idea for a new post, but I could be wrong.

Here’s the new “About me” on my profile pic;

“He ain’t heavy; he’s my brother.” These lyrics are some of my all time favorite. When I was growing up, I used song lyrics to describe how I felt about my life. In my early teens, this inclination died and was no more. Many years later, every now and then, it returns…and I smile. The Meaning for My Life (formerly Grandeurvision) is about: Love, Life and Presence. Miracle Mama is about miracle stories to inspire a life free from doubt, fear and limited thinking. I write from my heart when I feel inspired to share something. Welcome, friends of the world.

So what do you think?

Inspired by a comment on my friend, Ken Wert’s blog, Meant to be Happy, the profile update is meant to help bring out the authentic voice that lives inside.

Ken wrote a blog titled, 5 Signs Personal Development Blogs Are Hurting Your Personal Development.

One of the comments mentioned the importance of learning to listen to our authentic voice stating that our authentic voice knows what is best and always speaks the truth.

I whole-heartedly agree and found myself thinking that sometimes the lines are blurred.

For instance, scientists prove that environment conditions an organism. Since we are organisms, this applies to us as well. We are conditioned from birth. (But, don’t believe me. Check out the data for yourself.)

I see from my own personal experience; this is true. Even though, I prided myself of being independent, I see where I took on the beliefs of my environment.

These weren’t my beliefs from my own authentic voice. They belonged to someone else.

Over the years, the authentic voice peeped out on occasion, but I was quite good at silencing it.

So — who is the I that did the silencing?

Ah ha!

I caught you!

I see who you are now.

You are the conditioned self. The persona the world sees. The one who judges, analyzes, compares, calculates, criticizes and protects.

The authentic voice knows truth and doesn’t have to analyze, compare, calculate, criticize or make up beliefs.

It just knows.

Have you ever had a knowing about something, that wasn’t backed up by a data calculation of your mind, and turned out to be true?

I love when this happens!

This is how I want to live every day, every moment.

I want an intimate relationship with my own authentic voice.

What about you: do the lines blur for you too? Do you sometimes silence your authentic voice? 

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Learning about Love: Day 84 – A Hole in my Heart

An empty bench by the river.

A twinge of loneliness came to visit today. An empty feeling in the pit of my stomach emerged and I knew it wasn’t hunger; at least, not the hungry for food kind.

The lyrics of a song came to mind: “Another Saturday night and I ain’t got nobody.”

I sighed thinking how lovely it would be to have a special someone in my life. Someone to go on outings with. Someone to have fun with. Someone with whom I really clicked.

When it comes to men, I haven’t had much luck.

Relationships have always been a challenge for me, as was choosing a good man. I had good men interested in me. I just wasn’t interested in them.

I took on the challenges; the ones that needed my help.

When it came to relationships, I lost myself.

In hindsight, I think I lost myself in relationships just like I lost myself in cigarettes and alcohol. All of these things served as a diversion. Although I wasn’t consciously aware of this at the time.

Cigarettes, alcohol and needy relationships distracted me from the hole in my heart. A hole that began very early in life. A hole that was passed down. A hole that didn’t belong to me, but that I took on anyway because I was too young to know it wasn’t mine.

My story is not a new one. It happens all the time in society. Everywhere one looks, one can see someone putting their crap on someone else.

We do it unconsciously and we do it habitually.

In learning about love, one can wake up to recognize unconscious behavior, beliefs and attitudes.

I learned that the hole in my heart is the love and compassion I didn’t have for myself. It was the missing lesson in early life that begged for attention until I was ready to hear.

I’m listening now.

Learning about Love: Day 43

Pink (blurry) flower.

I love having blog-neighbours! Each one of you elevates me with your beautiful inspiring comments. I feel much better today. Thank you all.

I think I see how I got off track over the last while.

First off, my focus shifted. Activities I really like to do and that energize me took a back seat to activities that drain me and that I don’t like all that much.  I moved away from the path that makes me the happiest.

Second, as I mentioned in yesterday’s post, I let negative thoughts about my life affect my feelings. Thoughts such as, “My life should be better than it is. I should have a successful career by now. Everyone zooms past me. I shouldn’t have to live below the poverty level. I should have better health by now. My life’s been the same forever. Will I ever “make it”?”

Waaah. Waaah. Waaah. Whew! It’s exhausting! The mind is so funny.

I think I hear Byron Katie utter, “Can you find a stress-free reason to keep those thoughts?”

“No, Katie,  I don’t think I can.”

In response to Linda Willows comment on yesterday’s post, I wrote, “When I look back over my entire life, I realize that on one level, not much has changed. Although I live my life in a more conscious way now, sometimes I feel that I’m just doing the same things only with more awareness. The actual state or external conditions of my life is exactly as they were all those years ago. Sometimes, I wonder about fate. Could it really be possible that we choose our life before birth. I wonder what others think about this.”

Fate? Destiny? Could this be the mind’s attempt to explain why I’m not where I think I should be.

Later, I went to visit Cathy at Treatment Talk. Her post, 25 Quotes From Cheryl Strayed, Author of “Wild”, got me thinking that maybe my external life hasn’t changed much because I haven’t challenged myself enough.  Maybe I need to do something way way outside my comfort zone. I don’t know. I think it’s worth pondering.

Cheryl Strayed, hiked the Pacific Crest Trail, alone. Cathy’s daughter ventured to a wilderness camp and spent one of the night’s in the wilderness. All. By. Herself.  Wow!

What do you think? Does your life change much? Have you done anything that’s way outside your comfort zone? Any thoughts on fate? Destiny?

Learning about Love: Day 42

Sunbeam on the river

Today marks the forty-second day into my 100-day learning about love challenge and I wonder if I’ve learned anything about love so far.

I seemed to have had a preconceived notion that a 100-day love challenge would help me to feel loving and blissful 24/7. I think I failed miserably.

My mind seems to take me out more often these days. My mind wants to talk about how I’m not having much success with health, career and finances.

I hold onto the thoughts. I ruminate over them. I see the evidence staring back.

I declare, “Never mind. It doesn’t matter. Only love matters.”

I am resisting. I am impatient.

“What you resist; persists.”

Go with the flow.

I forgot to embrace the crap.

Embrace impatience. Embrace resistance.

Find the sacred in the struggle. Love will appear.

Thank Good.  Go with the flow and breath.

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Hello to new followers and Facebook friends. I appreciate your support very much.  Wishing all an embracing day.

Learning about Love: Day 5

Hello my lovely humans! We are blessed to experience another wondrous day in this physical incarnation. How will you affect those around you today? Will you radiate appreciation, love, compassion, patience and caring? Or will impatience, frustration, irritation, fear or possibly anger rule?

I live on both sides of the fence. Although I have been spending more and more time on one side of the fence. As I come to understand what my life’s about, more and more I let go of impatience, frustration, irritation, fear and anger.

The more I let go of unhelpful emotions the more I notice the unsettling feeling they bring when an event triggers one of them.

Just the other day, I got annoyed when it became apparent that some blog technology wasn’t working out smoothly. I happened to be working alongside a friend and I noticed that she felt the vibes of frustration radiating from me.

I have to admit, it didn’t make me feel very good. When I realized what was happening, I let the negative feelings go. After all, how important is it.

Researchers find that when we feel positive emotions like; appreciation, love, compassion and caring, the heart (which produces the largest rhythmic magnetic field of the body) radiates the positive vibes encoded in its magnetic field.

I imagine the opposite is true for negative emotions. I wonder what that could do to the physical health of the heart. I think I read about the effects many years ago in a book titled, “Anger Kills” written by a cardiologist.

Enough of my babbling. Here is a video by HeartMath that discusses the research of the heart’s magnetic field.

I love that Dr. McCraty says, “What we do individually does count. It matters.”

Suggestion for contemplation:  What’s encoded in your heart’s magnetic field? How do you cope with unhelpful emotions?

If you are new to this blog and wonder what this is all about, I’ve given myself a 100 day “Learning about Love” challenge. So — for the next 100 days, it’s all about love. My good friend calls it a “love makeover” (hehehe).

Thank you to all who accompany me on this journey. I really appreciate the support and wonderful comments.  🙂

I created a Facebook page for The Meaning for my Life to build a community where like-minded individuals can share the meaning for their life as well as items of inspiration to help keep us focused on Love, Life and Presence. Just give us a ‘Like’ and your in (hehe). The Like button is in the right sidebar under ‘My Story’ pages.

Learning about Love: Day 3

Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.”— Rumi, Sufi mystic, poet (1207-1273)

Rumi is saying that we don’t have to seek for love because we already have love. It’s already us. We are love. We are the created. What could be more loving than that? We are magnificent miracles of love.

So why is it that we don’t value ourselves as magnificent miracles of love? Why is it that we don’t value nature as a precious miracle of love? Personally, I know I spent many years not appreciating the miracle of nature or myself.

For me, some of the barriers are ignorance, fear, worry, anxiety, drama, incessant thinking, doubt and self-absorption. These are the blocks to the infinite ocean of love waiting patiently for me to discover so that it may pour forth its healing light of transformation.

Here is a video by Kute Blackson that explains the miracle is YOU. Is there a better reason than this for us to begin to honour ourselves and others as love beings capable of so much more than we display?

So, listen to the music of love deep inside and feel the aliveness of your inner body.

  • Get into a comfortable position, either sitting or lying down and close your eyes if you want.
  • Bring your attention into your body feeling the inflow and outflow of your breath.
  • Feel the surface of the skin on your thighs, knees, calves, ankles, feet and toes.
  • Do the same with your shoulders, arms and hands.
  • Notice any sensations and bring your attention into the sensation.
  • Go deeper into your body to feel your soft tissue and bones.
  • Just relax and feel the sensations for as long as you want.
  • If you find yourself thinking a stream of thoughts, gently guide your attention back into your body and repeat as many times as necessary.
  • Stop when you want to stop.
  • Try to do the exercise every day. You can even do the exercise throughout the day as often as you like while sitting or standing.

Practice the exercise for at least thirty days and notice what changes in your life.

Suggestion for contemplation:  What prevents you from hearing love’s call? What deprives you from sensing love’s stirring?

Learning about Love: Day 2

Helping Others

Here is a story from another WordPress blog that illustrates love in action. Hope you enjoy as much as I did.

Click here to read.

Suggestion for contemplation:  Is Love a force that gently nudges us into places of need? Does Love sit and wait patiently for us to hear its call?